*sigh*
This holiday season is just one huge ball of suck. First, I get rejected by the girl who's been sleeping with me over the past six months, because she isn't ready for a relationship and just tosses everything we had out the window... on the day before Thanksgiving.
Needless to say it ruined the holiday as I had dinner with my family, but nothing to really feel thankful for.
For the whole month I'm dealing with friends picking "sides" for some stupid reason, and all taking hers... then getting upset with me because I'm depressed over the whole ordeal, forget that I'm bi-polar and this is a trigger point.
I had to return the Christmas gift I bought for her, because I wasn't about to try and go back to her after all that happened. The problem on top of it is that I'm not over her because I can't figure out what I did wrong. As a guy, we're usually the ones afraid of commitment, not the other way around. And she continues trying to be my friend, sending me messages all the time.
Athlete's foot caused a minor cut that in turn got infected... the infection went out of control, causing my foot to get a staph infection, leaving me off of my feet for the whole week before Christmas, halting any shopping plans I had, and killing all chances of getting out of the house and away from things that reminded me of her. The infection is still here today...
I received nothing for Christmas as well. I had gifts for everyone, but because of the recession, nothing came my way except hugs. As much as it is the thought that counts, with the way life has been over the past few weeks, I thought karma would throw me a bone.
But as it is, I now have no plans for New Years, and no one to kiss at the ball drop.
It's things like this that cause people to kill themselves, I think. But I'm not going to try... because that'd probably get fucked up, too.
This holiday season is just one huge ball of suck. First, I get rejected by the girl who's been sleeping with me over the past six months, because she isn't ready for a relationship and just tosses everything we had out the window... on the day before Thanksgiving.
Needless to say it ruined the holiday as I had dinner with my family, but nothing to really feel thankful for.
For the whole month I'm dealing with friends picking "sides" for some stupid reason, and all taking hers... then getting upset with me because I'm depressed over the whole ordeal, forget that I'm bi-polar and this is a trigger point.
I had to return the Christmas gift I bought for her, because I wasn't about to try and go back to her after all that happened. The problem on top of it is that I'm not over her because I can't figure out what I did wrong. As a guy, we're usually the ones afraid of commitment, not the other way around. And she continues trying to be my friend, sending me messages all the time.
Athlete's foot caused a minor cut that in turn got infected... the infection went out of control, causing my foot to get a staph infection, leaving me off of my feet for the whole week before Christmas, halting any shopping plans I had, and killing all chances of getting out of the house and away from things that reminded me of her. The infection is still here today...
I received nothing for Christmas as well. I had gifts for everyone, but because of the recession, nothing came my way except hugs. As much as it is the thought that counts, with the way life has been over the past few weeks, I thought karma would throw me a bone.
But as it is, I now have no plans for New Years, and no one to kiss at the ball drop.
It's things like this that cause people to kill themselves, I think. But I'm not going to try... because that'd probably get fucked up, too.
devilsgoodangle:
Karma is a bitch! She hates everyone. Me and you are in the same boat dude. Everything you discribed I swore you were stalking me. LOL. Good luck bud. Merry Christmas.