misterei

#10
8.15.12.
7:30am
***Today is the anniversary of my accident***

I always feel conflicted on this day.
I use to tell everyone today is my anniversary.
People (including my mom) would say I don't know if you wanna celebrate this day.

But HELL YEAH!!

Today is the celebration of my new life.
I like to think I'm a much more aware person.
Not just of me, but of what surrounds me.
It's a BIG FREAKIN' world and I'm just a tiny speck.

I do hope I can leave this earth better than when I stumbled upon this planet.
Don't worry I don't want to be like David Bowie in The man who fell to earth.

What I do believe is that we choose our lives. We choose them to learn something before
we can graduate or move on. What is it that I'm suppose to learn? Got me...I don't really know.
The Psychologist I met at one of the seven hospitals I kept being transferred to because of my
progress as a patient believed...You have a courageous soul, Eric.

That could've been just a bunch of Psycho Babble mumbo jumbo...to keep me positive and
on the right track. But it worked. I like to look at myself as someone better than the next guy.
Who doesn't...right?
I guess it wouldn't be fair to pass judgement myself. Other people need to make that distinction.
And so far I've just survived. I survived being hit so hard that I did not respond for 63 days.