mistereel

just when i think my life cant get anymore hectic it does.

this last week ive been deathly ill.
started last monday with a slight sore throat. decided to just tough it out like i normally do. well by tuesday morning my throat had swollen to the point where it was almost impossible to breath let alone eat. spent all of tuesday and wednesday in the emergency room with lots of tubes and needles in me. the GF flipped out, mom flipped out, and the majority of the family flipped out. since i didnt eat and barely drank anything for 6 days ive become pretty sick looking. lost 11 pounds, and those of you who have seen me in person know i cant afford to lose even a single pound. i still feel like crap, and yet the boss wants me to come back into work. since im a pathetic ass kisser im going to submit and do what he wants. im probably going to pass out and get myself hurt but at least i wont have to pay the medical bills. its really frustrating for me since im scared to even drive in my current state, i cant even imagine going to work for a 9 hour shift just one day since ive been able to get out of bed without passing out.

its also frustrating cause after two days in the hospital they never did find out what was wrong with me. they treated me for strep throat (ive had strep before and this was 10x worse then any strep ive ever had), then for mono (have had mono like 3 times since i was 13, again never anything this serious) and also for kidney infections. since i dont have insurance i didnt really want to have a lot of tests done. i just said "lots of pills!!!" and thats what i got. but all and all im feeling ok now. best part is i havent smoked in 7 days and i feel great about it. i think i can finally quit!