i've been gone a long time. alot of things have happened. the same girl broke my heart a second time promptly sending me into a drug and alcohol fueled bender. getting fucked up diddn't work. big surprise there, so i stopped. sobriety was no good either. niether was burying my self in work, nor escaping to fictional landscapes, or my own mind. christ, my mind was what i was trying to get away from.
m----- taught me the extent of my emotional range, the absolute dunken violet bliss of love, vermillion pain and rage when her boyfriend broke my nose (the dumb son of a bitch forgot that he already had everything dear to me at his side and just added injury to insult,) and the fog of total loss and abandon. i think i have a good idea of what being punched int he heart feels like now. it'd still hurt if it hadn't transformed into cold rock.
i offer my sincerest mea culpa for being a total fucking flake all summer. sometimes, life must take precedence over all this.
i've missed you darling ladies a great deal.
m----- taught me the extent of my emotional range, the absolute dunken violet bliss of love, vermillion pain and rage when her boyfriend broke my nose (the dumb son of a bitch forgot that he already had everything dear to me at his side and just added injury to insult,) and the fog of total loss and abandon. i think i have a good idea of what being punched int he heart feels like now. it'd still hurt if it hadn't transformed into cold rock.
i offer my sincerest mea culpa for being a total fucking flake all summer. sometimes, life must take precedence over all this.
i've missed you darling ladies a great deal.
<3 Libby