Not that long ago I saw this movie called Suicide Club and posted a journal entry about the movie because it totally fucked with my head. Its basically about a bunch of kids that start a rash of suicide clubs in Japan. Today I was looking through the news and read an article where this actually happened. I hope that this is not an example of life imating art.
Internet Suicide Pact
Internet Suicide Pact
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all day i have been feeling like a total shitbag cuz i should feel happy for him, right? that he's clean, but i'm just pissed fucking off. mainly because he is only now realizing why i left. but all the i'm sorry's in the world isn't gonna help because the apology doesn't come from within, as in he knows what he did to me. He can only see it from my perspective, cuz he can't fucking remember. It's all a blur. He to this day says that he cannot believe I left him. And I just look at him in disbelief. Every day I would wake up next to him and not know what to expect. I just could not put myself at that much risk anymore. No way could I marry him and have kids with him only bury him a few years later. Couldn't do it. I still care for him, but I could never go back. Now? I'm just left with all this anger. It is so wierd. He used to be the angry one all those years and I never was. Now I feel like his rage has seeped into me.
Gosh, sorry. This is probably gonna fill up your whole journal.
I wish I knew you better too but now i sorta feel like I do.