missypie81

so its catching up to me.
the feeling.
the feeling you get when you let someone go.
and that someone was amazing.
but you cant change it into something its not.
but it still fucking sucks.
did i do the right thing?
did i mistake fear of commitment with lack of love?
did i just fuck up the best thing i ever had?
and now he hates me.
and im begining to hate myself.
the fucked up thing is i know i was right.
but there is always that doubt in the back of your mind.
now i remember why before 2004 i hadent had a real relationship in 4 years.
cause they fucking suck.
even when you know you did the right think they fucking suck.
fuck human emotion.
fuck relationships.
fuck people who make you feel like you are the worst person in the world because you tried to do the right thing.
fuck people who dont belive you loved them, just because you dont love them anymore.
whatever.
im over it.