missybecca

I am feeling a crazy combo of feelings right now...
im so hurt and I feel quite betrayed... Im angry and feel like I should just tell all my friends to fuck off and its not worth it... but I don't want to cause drama and I know that I'm just going to be the one blamed for them all cancelling out on me on my birthday.... to go hang out with some girl who most of them don't even like that much.... All I want to do is curl up and cry.... and the worst part is that I just got home from 3 hours of shopping trying to find the cutest outfit because I was so excited that this was actually going to be a really great birthday.... man this just shows me why I shouldn't get excited about things...

But we'll see... Boo and the few friends who decided its nice to keep ours plans, are trying to think of an alternate plans for us to celebrate my birthday. so maybe things will still turn out ok... but at this exsact second I just want to say forget it and I'll just sack this birthday up as another loser.

But i really shouldn't be like that... and I really do appreciate that Boo is trying hard to try to make this right again and he is just as mad that our friends would do this to me... He just so tired of everyone treating me like a deserve second best, when he sees that I would do anything for my friends and often do.

When it comes down to it.. I really don't care anymore what we do as long as i get to spend it with Boo,Pigletx69 and a few other friends thats all that really matters... and Im sure we'll have fun.

though I am still quite disapointed that we aren't going to get to go to the Dance Cave.