missvavoom

Im depressed. My grandma has cancer. I don't know how to deal with it. Ive been crying for like a week now. I went to go see her over the weekend and it just made me self reflect. Her and my grandpa really loved each other yet, they divorced over stupid shit they really could have worked through. When I went to go see her, she lives in a huge house all by herself. I dont like the fact that she all alone in that house. But also, I dont want to be alone. I never want to be that lonely. Yet when I was visiting her, I realized I already am, I have no one. I don't have that special person I could go to at the end of the day, when my day is rough. I can only truely write about it. But words can't hug you, or tell you everything is gonna be okay. Word can't say "I love you" and somehow make the discomfort disappear. The people that I thought could have been there for me, only disappointed me. Iv'e never been more alone, and thats my reality.