so since the first time I had heard about the Suicide Girls I loved to concept. It's amazing that there is a place where woman can feel free to be themselves not matter there shape, color, or size.
It's really hard because I've never felt good in my own skin. I know I'm cute and I own that but I've grown tried of cute. My little sister was a thin blond and crazy athletic. Everyone was always drawn to her. So it's was always really heard to feel special next to that. I know all women have felt this way at some time in their lives. Looking back at pictures of myself I hate that I felt that way. The thing is I'm 5 ft. I can be the same weight and size of some of my friends but it's going to look like more on me because I'm so short.
In the last few years I have gained more weight and I'm the heaviest I've ever been. I don't think I would be happy skinny. I think I would look strange as a stick but I do want to get down to a size 11 jean (I'll never fit into a size 11 top). So I have set a new goal for myself. I'm going to work at loosing 30 pounds and when I meet that goal I plan on signing up to be a hopeful.
So wish me luck in my quest!
It's really hard because I've never felt good in my own skin. I know I'm cute and I own that but I've grown tried of cute. My little sister was a thin blond and crazy athletic. Everyone was always drawn to her. So it's was always really heard to feel special next to that. I know all women have felt this way at some time in their lives. Looking back at pictures of myself I hate that I felt that way. The thing is I'm 5 ft. I can be the same weight and size of some of my friends but it's going to look like more on me because I'm so short.
In the last few years I have gained more weight and I'm the heaviest I've ever been. I don't think I would be happy skinny. I think I would look strange as a stick but I do want to get down to a size 11 jean (I'll never fit into a size 11 top). So I have set a new goal for myself. I'm going to work at loosing 30 pounds and when I meet that goal I plan on signing up to be a hopeful.
So wish me luck in my quest!
artimus_e:
Good luck with your quest!! You are beautiful just the way you are, but it's always good to have goals in life. Whatever you choose, I wish you the best. (and, look forward to your forthcoming hopefuls set! 
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