Over the past year I have dated quite a bit. I haven't ever felt like anyone meant anything to me. Not even in a friendship way, I just thought it was convenient and nice to have someone around. When they left, I didn't care. I knew someone else would come along when they were suppose to. I started to worry I didn't have feelings anymore. I thought the scars were too thick to feel anymore (that's deeeep!!!).
Guess what? I like someone! Not just a warm body to be near me and keep me sane, but I actually enjoy their company. I want to know them, be apart of their life, and possibly see where things go. I haven't felt this in so long it's refreshing. I haven't had girly emotions in so long I forgot how much fun it is! So sue me, I guess I have a soft side. I think what makes it even better is it's someone I never thought I would be attracted to. I considered him "not my type", guess again. *shrugs*
I also want to say, just because I am female and I have guys that I spend time with, does not mean that I am having sex. It means that men can handle my personality better than women can. I can't help it guys want to be my friend. If I talk to a man over a woman in a social setting, it's because men are easier to talk to for me. I am a cold hearted bitch and women don't like that. Conversation or relationships with the opposite sex does not always lead to sexy moments. This is something I'm tired of hearing; assumptions about my love life. If it's that interesting that you make up delusional stories in your head, just ask. That's my rant for the day, I will curtsy and exit stage left now.
On a more normal note, I played strip poker last night. Not only did I play with my roommate, we invited some guy we met at the bar last night. We were sitting around the table as normal, drinking, talking. Next thing I know there is a heated debate about politics. Jokingly, my roomate says "Hey, let's play strip poker!" He was hoping to shut everyone up, but some how the cards came out and the clothes came off. Thinking back it almost seemed like none of us really wanted to do it, but we were drunk and getting naked is so much better than debating politics.
So before it was all over, we were all naked. Even the girl who won ended up naked. During this, the bar guy and I were first out, naked. So we started talking about diabetes and hypoglycemia. I needed pointers for not letting my blood sugar get so low. It took me about half an hour to realize; I am sitting naked in my kitchen with 3 other people talking about blood sugar. It was all so surreal, but fun.
The End.
Guess what? I like someone! Not just a warm body to be near me and keep me sane, but I actually enjoy their company. I want to know them, be apart of their life, and possibly see where things go. I haven't felt this in so long it's refreshing. I haven't had girly emotions in so long I forgot how much fun it is! So sue me, I guess I have a soft side. I think what makes it even better is it's someone I never thought I would be attracted to. I considered him "not my type", guess again. *shrugs*
I also want to say, just because I am female and I have guys that I spend time with, does not mean that I am having sex. It means that men can handle my personality better than women can. I can't help it guys want to be my friend. If I talk to a man over a woman in a social setting, it's because men are easier to talk to for me. I am a cold hearted bitch and women don't like that. Conversation or relationships with the opposite sex does not always lead to sexy moments. This is something I'm tired of hearing; assumptions about my love life. If it's that interesting that you make up delusional stories in your head, just ask. That's my rant for the day, I will curtsy and exit stage left now.
On a more normal note, I played strip poker last night. Not only did I play with my roommate, we invited some guy we met at the bar last night. We were sitting around the table as normal, drinking, talking. Next thing I know there is a heated debate about politics. Jokingly, my roomate says "Hey, let's play strip poker!" He was hoping to shut everyone up, but some how the cards came out and the clothes came off. Thinking back it almost seemed like none of us really wanted to do it, but we were drunk and getting naked is so much better than debating politics.
So before it was all over, we were all naked. Even the girl who won ended up naked. During this, the bar guy and I were first out, naked. So we started talking about diabetes and hypoglycemia. I needed pointers for not letting my blood sugar get so low. It took me about half an hour to realize; I am sitting naked in my kitchen with 3 other people talking about blood sugar. It was all so surreal, but fun.
The End.
colinism:
Thats an awesome night. 