misssmartypants

So this weekend is basically a blur. I don't know what really happened. I think over all I had a great time though. I think the worst part was bringing in the New Year. I was with a lot of people, complete strangers, and when the ball dropped, I was standing there alone wish myself a Happy New Year. I think that moment set the mood for 2007 like it has in every year's past, alone once again kids. I don't know how or why I'm always alone, but I am. I'm not complaining, it's nice, but I am curious about this not being alone thing.

I don't know what it is about the New Year but it depresses me. I can't put my finger on if it is the fact that everyone disappears for a while due to family and other obligations, the fact that my life pretty much means nothing, or if it's just the weather. I hate it though. This is when all emotions shut down and I really honestly could care less about any single person I know. I'm just a blob with a heartbeat taking motions to get through to tomorrow. I can't wait until the sun comes out and my friends get home.

Work has been torture, we are so swamped I'm dying. I'm overbooked and they keep piling more on. I'm making crazy cash, but still, I need a freakin' break! I have to say all in all I love my job and kudos to me in the new year loving what I do. Atleast I got one thing right.

New Year's Resolution: Get rid of anyone in my life who isn't suppose to be there, become more of lady and less of a heathen, think about what "the rest of my life" entails (career, marriage, living arrangments, etc). Blah blah blah.....