missred

been working out like a mo fo. i see a personal trainer once a week so i can learn new exercises and mostly bc i tend to bail out as soon as the pain starts (car accident injuries) which is within the first week. if i have someone to hold me accountable and im paying for it, i tend to hold up a little better...this shit aint cheap. its for the better though, i need to stick with it. im weak as hell! i have done absolulty nothing but yoga and some pilates since the accident in 2009 so needless to say...im weak as hell. im a little butt hurt about it. im so much more bad ass and strong in my head. everyone has to start somewhere i guess. just sucks starting all the fuck over again! my trainer kicks my ass...im gonna get sexy, skinny and strong though! im determined! ive got til december to see some results...

im going to get my CNA certification this month. hopefully i can get in with one of the drs i work with and make some more money and get some good experience for my resume and hrs for school. we will see.

i have nothing interesting to say right now...all i do is work, gym, sleep...until the end of the month in which depending on the day it will be work school and/or gym, sleep...my life is redundant and boring. just waiting for my guy to come home to me...4 more months....4 very long and frustrating months....hes worth it though. i made a good decision on this one...cant say so much about my previous choices....oi vey.