missred

sooo....lost my temper at work today. so much so i had to apologize to my office and even a guy from the office next to mine....

not my fault. i told them not to do anything crazy bc its was my birthday....my boss...didnt listen. i had no control over the emotion i had, though, i controlled the reaction....to an extent...the heat im sure that was emanating off of me and the bright redness of my entire body and the shaking, and fact i couldnt put a sentence together...i blame on my biology.
no one came near me or spoke to me for about a good 20-30 min...until i wasnt red anymore.
damn being fair skinned. cant have any emotion without being red. i turn red when im happy, sad, angry, confused, nervous, in deep thought, hungry...lol fuck.

now no one is going to joke with me in fear of my potientally killing them.

im embarassed that people saw me like that bc it doesnt happen often. i am pissed i was put in a situation that made me feel like that. i do not like being angry or for people to see me lose my temper. it could have been worse for sure, i held it together. thank god there were no patients in the office.

wtf man. at least no one will fuck with me ha!