missred

i over think things sometimes. well alot. i am one of those ppl who will be faced with a situation and then automatically thinks of every possible way it could go. i overwhelm myself with situational options and sometime lack the ability to take things at face value. so all this nonsense just piled up on me ontop of my already stressed out life. mostly cause of work. im not a basket case or anything i just get to a breaking point and fall over the edge cause my brain just wont stop. so basically there are ways to fix things or go about them differently to aliviate (?) some of this pressure i feel. it just takes a day or two away from it to step back and reasess. that was smack in the middle. i have had time to think and am now more clear about it.

and zale, your are right. why bother? i enjoy this person. he really isnt horrible just different than me and so we clash at times. we havent always been at eachothers throat. i dont necessarily want to be in a romantic relationship with him again at this point but i do value him as a friend and want to try to keep him in my life if we can manage it. if it becomes a negitive relationship for both of us, aside from our retared spats or miscommuntication and over reactions then i will walk away from it and stop bothering. like i said tho its not easy at all, not when you have put 2 years into being with someone. no matter what type of relationship it is, its not easy to walk away from someone you have cared deeply about.