missrabbit

Anyway, she spent the night again last night, we slept naked again. She tried to get me to do pretty sexual things with her.. Which is kinda interesting. She never really tried anything too sexual before, it was mostly just really sensual and cute types of things and then making out. And it's interesting how it started, we were getting coffee and we were talking about things of the sexual sort and I was like, "Well, generally I like tall ladies, but I think right now I might be feeling a little lady. Been awhile since I found a cute little lady that looks like you could break her and then tried to.. If you know what I mean.." I am kinda a sadomasochist.. p.s. And like, then we went to the park and I wrestled her and pinned her, and she was surprised. (She's 5'11") And I was like, "Yeeeah, I'm a strong little mother fucker. I do kung fu, bitch." And then like I found out I got a new job. And took off my clothes and ran around to celebrate and then came back and regained my things and then I walked up to her sitting on the bench and and stepped on her feet lightly and she put her arms out and I grabbed her hands and she pulled me on top of her on the bench and hugged me for like 10 minutes and then started feelin' me a lot and like.. Kissin' all up on my neck and shit and I was like.. 0_0 But I liked it, so I went with it. Then we decided to get pizza and we were gathering our things and she just picks me up, I hop on her hips and she's like, "Oh my god! You're so light!" And I was like.. "Duh.. I'm like 5'6" and I weight like 117lbs.. Have you seen me? What did you expect?" and then she made a sigh and was like, "I wish I could carry you around all the time. Hug you all the time." And then she just held me for a while and we went to pizza and fuckin'.. I guess she's a total masochist.. Hardcore. Then we went to her house to get her shit and she decides she wants to wrestle me again, and I win. Again. And then like.. She fuckin' just starts kissin' me tons, like, every chance she gets. I guess being powerless turns her on a lot. Probably cause she's so tall. But yeah, we get to my house and fuckin' we're naked and I'm the little spoon and she starts kissin' my neck again and shit and feeling me and I'm like, "Whoa, lady. You gotta stop that. I'm getting excited.." and she giggles and kisses my shoulder a couple times, and I was like, "And, woman, if you do that again like that, I'm gonna fucking attack you. And not like earlier. And it's gonna be violent, cause I know you know what you're doing to me. So, be careful. Aight?" and she giggles. Then like two minutes later, she starts again, and I start squeezing her hard and I'm like, "You think I'm kidding?" and she continues and I chicken out.. Oh, well. Next time I'll fucking do it. What the fuck.. I don't know what to think of all this.. I mean, she's really nice to me, and like.. She buys me shit, and invites me everywhere and texts me first everyday. Like.. WTF? I don't understand. Her facebook profile picture is us. Titled "BLISS."...Ooookay? And today she told me I make her really happy, and invited me over tomorrow. WTFFF?

Whatever.. I'll remain in the state of mind, if I'm getting stuff out of it, then.. Fuck it. Why not? And you know, all of my friends say that to me all the time, "You deserve better. You're a sweetheart." and blah blah blah. And yeah, fucking right I do. I'd fucking do anything for anyone I care about. I try my hardest not to hurt anyone and be as caring and helpful and considerate as I can. Pay it forward when I get the chance. What the eff? I wish every lady I like wouldn't treat me like such shit.. It hurts, you know? A lot. I'm a fucking person, and a good hearted one at that. I don't deserve bullshit, but it's like, the story of my fucking life. Uhg! Tired of it.. That's why I'm all fuck it.

Whatever..