missmelissa

Sorry my last few blogs have sucked. This one won't be much better. I've just been extremely fucking down lately, I'm sure we've all been there. I finally stopped procrastinating and booked an appointment to get help for my depression. Trying to battle it on my own for years was probably the most stupid thing a person could do.

Just wanted to write this and say that hopefully in a few weeks/ months I'll be able to post some good solid blogs for you to enjoy. I just want to be back to my ole bubbly self again. It's really hard for me to go through this, because I am a people person. Nothing makes me happier than to make someone happy. Right now I have to put myself first [for once] and get better. So I can be the best person I can be.

Here's a picture of me and my better half. He's been with me every step of the way. I'm not quite sure what I would do without him. He's been my best friend for 5 years, boyfriend for 1 year. To be honest, I don't know why we weren't together right from the start. Regardless, can't change the past... but we can change the future. This is the man I want to build a life with...







I know in past blogs I may have said he pissed me off... but what guy doesn't? If I could delete blogs I would, but I'm leaving it there as a reminder to myself as to what depression can do to a person. Which is focus their anger on an innocent candidate. I regret saying a single thing bad about him, because he is the best thing to ever happen to me. I love him more than life itself.

I'm just lucky to be with someone to put up with my psycho bullshit depression. I need to get better so I can be the best girlfriend I can be when it's all said and done. It's what he deserves.