missmelissa

Have you ever had a dream with someone you know in it, and you wake up angry at them because of what you dreamed??? I mean, it's only a dream... but sometimes it can be SO REAL, that you think they actually deceived or hurt you in some way!

Last night I had a dream that Ronnie went to his friends house for the night, and came home the next day. I noticed he got his hair cut. I was like, "oh where'd you get your haircut it looks nice" and he replied... "Umm.. chantelle did it". [thinking it was a little peculiar] I was like, "what were you doing at chantelles, I thought you were at chris's place". He just looked to the ground. I knew then that he hadn't actually gone there, instead he stayed the night at one of my closest girlfriends house. I immediately broke into tears and asked for him to tell me the truth... Which he heartlessly responded, "I just don't look at you the same anymore"

It was enough to make me want to throw up on myself. All I could think to do was run away. There was a flow of people on the streets, seeming to go in the opposite direction that I wanted to. Which made it difficult to break through them and run away. It almost felt like my feet were sticking to the pavement and I couldn't run away fast enough. Somehow he caught up to me, and said, "I feel bad, we can still be together" but by that time the damage was done and I just wanted to escape.

I woke up and felt so utterly shitty!! I felt like, the one person I could count on was the one person who let me down. I felt like my heart was sunk so deep in my chest that it hurt. My dream was so vivid that it physically effected me once I woke up. Ugh... I still can't shake the feeling that "he doesn't look at me the same anymore" even though it was just a dream. Silly, I realize that! I guess my subconscious is telling me that I'm paranoid of being abandoned. No one wants to feel like they aren't loved anymore. I need a big hug for reassurance.