I can't stand it. Every pain, every foot jab, every cramp and I think it's time. I am getting so angry and frustrated. I know it's not my 'due date' yet, but who knows what that really was? And if he weighed approx 7.5 lbs a week and a half ago.. Um, I have an 8.5 lb baby in my belly... (All guesstimates of course.)
I'm trying to keep myself occupied and keep my mind off of baby. But, every single person I see says to me "I can't believe you're still here!" No shit sherlock, me either.
I don't want to go back to work. I just get so anxious and upset because everyone says right when I leave "I hope I don't see you tomorrow!" I don't want to be around customers or employees, I'm their main topic of conversation. Today, I stayed behind the scenes. I cleaned everything, top to bottom, inside and out. I felt like I was on crack. At one point I had to sit and relax because I was shaking. And at that time, I was working too! Doing administrative stuff. Then I continued cleaning. I really felt like I was on speed.
Left work at little after 7pm because I have to be back at 7am. But, I don't think I'm going to be doing much sleeping. Went and picked up something to cook for dinner.. Cleaned my kitchen, put together the pack-n-play, vacuumed the hallway and the stairs and swept the kitchen floor, put my dishes away, made my storage tubs into a make shift kitchen table, and cooked my dinner. Oh and made my bed. Now, to fold my laundry, vacuum my living room, clean out the fridge, take the rest of the tape off the walls in the nursery, and hang up/fold the rest of his clothes from my momma and Jess.. Ooh yeah!! She made me a diaper cake!!!
I'm trying to keep myself occupied and keep my mind off of baby. But, every single person I see says to me "I can't believe you're still here!" No shit sherlock, me either.
I don't want to go back to work. I just get so anxious and upset because everyone says right when I leave "I hope I don't see you tomorrow!" I don't want to be around customers or employees, I'm their main topic of conversation. Today, I stayed behind the scenes. I cleaned everything, top to bottom, inside and out. I felt like I was on crack. At one point I had to sit and relax because I was shaking. And at that time, I was working too! Doing administrative stuff. Then I continued cleaning. I really felt like I was on speed.
Left work at little after 7pm because I have to be back at 7am. But, I don't think I'm going to be doing much sleeping. Went and picked up something to cook for dinner.. Cleaned my kitchen, put together the pack-n-play, vacuumed the hallway and the stairs and swept the kitchen floor, put my dishes away, made my storage tubs into a make shift kitchen table, and cooked my dinner. Oh and made my bed. Now, to fold my laundry, vacuum my living room, clean out the fridge, take the rest of the tape off the walls in the nursery, and hang up/fold the rest of his clothes from my momma and Jess.. Ooh yeah!! She made me a diaper cake!!!
And I am going to shower, wash, dry and straighten my hair so I can sleep a little longer in the morning.. And then, uh, probably watch 300 for the millionth time!
Hey, by the way.. World of Jenks is the best reality show MTV has ever come out with. He is an awesome guy.
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kellenthirteen:
how you feelin' hun?? thinking of you 
punknitemike:
your baby belly profile pic is one of the most beautiful i have ever seen! 