missmay

Why does this song make me happy?! It's not a happy song!!! But I want to shout it at the top of my lungs! And well, I have been for a couple days. God bless I love Freddie Mercury. His voice is/was so pure. I found the best radio station on Pandora: Queen Radio. I heard Somebody to Love playing at work the other night just as I was going downstairs to my office.. My office with no AC and a flippin fan with no cover on it. Anywho, I turned on Pandora and heard one of the most amazing covers of Bohemian Raphsody of my life. Constantine Moralious. I had no idea he was on American Idol until I looked up the song on youtube. WOW. Such a pure voice. Yeah, so this song is supposed to be sad and depressing but it brightens my day and makes me shout from the top of the roof! Could it really be?! Can I really be finally coming to the realization he doesn't have a hold on me anymore?! Yeah, his baby is in my belly, but that's just it. IT'S IN MY BELLY!! Not his.. He hasn't been here once for me, not one single fucking time of this whole pregnancy, who really thinks he's going to be there when MY son is born? God bless, why should I give up my life to appease him?! Gosh, today is the official 100% official start of my third trimester and all I ever get from that guy is when I tell him I've fallen, I'm extremely sick, or I'm having contractions. He doesn't give a flying fuck about me or his baby and it finally feels good to admit that. He never cared about me. He was never in love with me. And you know what, I am in love with him. My love for him will never die, but I have to quit trying to let it be. I'm sorry heart, you're just going to have move on! LOOK, HE'S WITH ANOTHER GIRL (a girl who looks just like his ex btw.... he always preferred blondes.. he's such a GD liar!!) I am so much better off without him in my life. He doesn't want anything to do with me unless I want something to do with him. And guess what.. I DON'T WANT ANYTHING TO DO WITH HIM!!! I have my own life and am so much better without him. I can see a happy future without us together. GOD DAMMIT IT FEELS SOO GOOD!! Sorry for the GD... I have to start living again! I am pregnant, and beautiful, and smart, and caring, and people actually fucking like me. It's so nice to be away from him. He doesn't have anything on me anymore. Here, I can say it and not be ashamed. I cheated on him in November. He found out 2 days after I got pregnant. I found out I was preg 2 weeks later and he ran to AZ two weeks later. Run from your problems.. Guess what.. THIS PROBLEM IS NOT, I REPEAT, IS NOT GOING TO FOLLOW YOU!! The rest of them are and then some.. have fun with that.. Let's see how many baby mamas you can rack up by the time it's all said and done.. (that was kinda cold.. no, no it wasn't.) I've cried my last tear over you! It's my time to revel in your sadness.You've enjoyed your last of my misery. You chose to miss out on this. I've been here the whole time and it's so sad to say because I would love nothing more than for MY son to have his daddy and brother in his life, but I'm sure for the first few years you will, unfortunately, just be a paycheck. And that, my friend, is your choice. NOT MINE. You've chosen not to be there and it's time for me to start finding people who actually care. A choice you made when you stuck your dick in that blonde bitch. Sorry.. Not going to end my life so you can have your cake and eat it too. Come to Ohio to be with your son. I didn't abandon you when you were pregnant. Really wish there was some sort of role reversal.
IT FEELS AWESOME AND I'M GOING TO SHOUT THIS SONG AGAIN FROM THE TOP OF MY LUNGS. I MEAN IT.

Can anybody find me somebody to love
Ooh, each morning I get up I die a little
Can barely stand on my feet
(Take a look at yourself) Take a look in the mirror and cry (and cry)
Lord what you're doing to me (yeah yeah)
I have spent all my years in believing you
But I just can't get no relief, Lord!
Somebody (somebody) ooh somebody (somebody)
Can anybody find me somebody to love ?

Yeah
I work hard (he works hard) every day of my life
I work till I ache in my bones
At the end (at the end of the day)
I take home my hard earned pay all on my own
I get down (down) on my knees (knees)
And I start to pray
Till the tears run down from my eyes
Lord somebody (somebody), ooh somebody
(Please) Can anybody find me somebody to love ?

(He works hard)
Everyday (everyday) - I try and I try and I try
But everybody wants to put me down
They say I'm going crazy
They say I got a lot of water in my brain
Ah, got no common sense
I got nobody left to believe in
Yeah yeah yeah yeah

Oh Lord
Ooh somebody - ooh somebody
Can anybody find me somebody to love ?
(Can anybody find me someone to love)

Got no feel, I got no rhythm
I just keep losing my beat (You just keep losing and losing)
I'm OK, I'm alright (he's alright - he's alright)
I ain't gonna face no defeat (yeah yeah)
I just gotta get out of this prison cell
One day (someday) I'm gonna be free, Lord!

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Find me somebody to love somebody somebody somebody somebody
Somebody find me
Somebody find me somebody to love
Can anybody find me somebody to love ?


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