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missmay

Gem City

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Wednesday Apr 21, 2010

Apr 21, 2010
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i absolutely hate being in that city. every stop light im stuck at brings me to tears. it kills me. i keep having dreams that he kills me, literally. last night was the worst. two nights ago there were three of them. i can only remember two. we were vacationing in aspen, probably a honeymoon, and he tried to kill me and was shot and killed in return. the other he was drowning me and i woke up gasping for air. last night, it was so real. i was in my house, it was actually the house i had with johnny b years ago. i was standing in the living room and baby had a changing table in place of where our tv was. baby was laying there and i was standing in the living room wearing a gray t-shirt and jean shorts. there were no lights on and the white curtains were drawn letting a very pretty light through the window. he broke down my door and held a loaded shotgun to my head, cocked it and said 'i'll kill you if you dont give me my baby.' my baby was beautiful! he was so happy and had no idea what was going on. he looked just like me, which im sure he will. it was terrifying. i woke up and it was over.
why does it seem every song on the radio relates to what i'm feeling at that moment in time?
I guess I was just a little too late. I am now the woman you need me to be, but I'm not doing it for you as much as I am doing it for me. I am the woman I need to be and dammit it feels good.

I painted your room at midnight
So I'd know yesterday was over
I put all your books on the top shelf
Even the one with the four leaf clover

Man, I'm getting older
I took all your pictures off the wall
And wrapped them in a newspaper blanket
I haven't slept in what seems like a century
And now I can barely breathe

Just like a crow chasing the butterfly
Dandelions lost in the summer skies
When you and I were getting high as outer space
I never thought you'd slip away
I guess I was just a little too late

Your words still serenade me
Your lullabies won't let me sleep
I've never heard such a haunting melody
Oh, it's killing me
You know I can barely breathe

Just like a crow chasing the butterfly
Dandelions lost in the summer skies
When you and I were getting high as outer space
I never thought you'd slip away
I guess I was just a little too late

Just like a crow chasing the butterfly
Dandelions lost in the summer skies
When you and I were getting high as outer space
I never thought you'd slip away

Like a crow chasing the butterfly
Dandelions lost in the summer skies
When you and I were getting high as outer space
I never thought you'd slip away
I guess I was just a little too late

Just a little too late


On a lighter note.. I have picked out my new bedroom set, my new bathroom decor, a new comorter set, and a crib! Now i'm going to do a little on-line browsing at IKEA for baby's room.

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