nothing like getting off work from a very long and busy shift and going straight to the er. and then!! coming home only to have the meds not work.. i woke up at 8:55 am yesterday (saturday) spent a whole bunch of money on a car thats not mine, and went to work. i didnt get to go to sleep until around 2 pm today...
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tikki:
ouch.
i've had shit in my lungs for weeks. i think i have pneumonia or severe bronchitis.. the z-pack didnt work...
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talamia:
I love your colourful sets, so fun 
camaral:
Maybe you need a new pharmacist 
. Hope you feel better!!!!
. Hope you feel better!!!!its my fault. he's gone. its my fault. i am young, i am naive, i make mistakes. i cant be forgiven for them. its over. i have nothing left to live for. he was the air in my lungs, its gone. its my fault. i cant go on without him. i've lost everything. my life, my love, my job, my house, my car, my family....
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groove:
There's nothing you can't be forgiven for... it can take a long time to realize it, but it's true. :hugs:
diasnis:
Things will work out in the end, hun. Right now, you need to work things out for yourself. You've got people to talk to, people who care, and we're here for you when you need us. :: hugs :: Everything works out, kiddo, remember that. We've all had our shares of experiences like this. Just remember to use us when you need to.
why does being a human with emotions have to be so hard?
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roxsea:
god, i study psychology and I STILL DON"T KNOW> keep on marching lil soldier. you'll get through it all. trust. <3
roxsea:
ps. considering moving to az? care to join the fake sg inspired sorority myself and pal are creating? i vote yes. you can be the first (fake) pledge. hearts!
hearts!well. i dont know. i love it. i just dont think they get it. shattered isnt just the set name. when i look in the mirror, i see a shattered image. who is that girl i see looking back at me? she isnt real, she's a fucking bitch whore who treats people like shit just because she can. but thats not who i really am....
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legman:
Lovely new set! 
Shattered
Hopeful Set
no shooting. im, or at least was, bleeding profusely out of my crotch. i mean bad. clots. i kno. thats gross. and it came completely unexpected! two weeks early. if i hadnt just been scammed for $171 i would go to the dr. but now im broke. i was already gonna be broke cuz of christmas. if you kno what this is, then you kno...
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i've been in contact with some photographers and so far, 2 for 2 have canceled on me. i have a shoot tuesday, hopefully he doesnt bail. he looks like my best hope.
well i guess karma is a real thing. i got out of paying $800 today, and got 30 more days to do it. went to the flea market.
i feel better, a little.
i feel better, a little.
omg. another day off means another day at work. cant i just get some time off work?! this is two weeks now! two 6 day weeks.... its never gonna end.
i didnt get tattooed..
i didnt get tattooed..
another day down. 4:28.. 13 hours, not 12.
no jack tonight, just trees and a hot hot shower.
i almost drove myself to the hospital and checked myself in. every thought i have is how to end it. who would i be hurting? they would feel the pain for a little while and then realize theyre better off without me. no. thats not true. i...
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no jack tonight, just trees and a hot hot shower.
i almost drove myself to the hospital and checked myself in. every thought i have is how to end it. who would i be hurting? they would feel the pain for a little while and then realize theyre better off without me. no. thats not true. i...
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khiddo:
Im so sorry to hear that. The good days will return just stay strong
3:28. 12 hours and counting. shots before work? no. no drinking and driving. (thank you for being there cole). ahh fuck, cole. i cry about once a week thinking of you. what am i gonna do at the family christmas? i miss you so much. i miss your voice, your antics, your advice. you would tell me just to drink beers to fix it. all...
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dghouls:
Hey, don't know your situation, or story, but you aren't soulless, alone, perhaps (outside poeple on the web) hurt sure, but not soulless. You may have given your heart, but you can't give up your soul. Your soul exists beyond the capacity for your to use it as a commodity, it is what you are.
The heart, though, is a type of comodity, with usually uneven rates of exchange. The heart in us that loves is regenerative, the more we give to others the more we regrow what is given/shared. When that love/heart is taken or abused, and susiquently removed, we feel like no love is left, or even the capacity, we feel only the loss, as you sound like, but it is not hopeless, there is in you still a heart, wounded or broken, and it will regenerate.
Your blog/post is sad and unfortunate, I hope you will find peace and comfort in your friends, of not there are those of us out herre on the other side of the screen who want you to be well.
The heart, though, is a type of comodity, with usually uneven rates of exchange. The heart in us that loves is regenerative, the more we give to others the more we regrow what is given/shared. When that love/heart is taken or abused, and susiquently removed, we feel like no love is left, or even the capacity, we feel only the loss, as you sound like, but it is not hopeless, there is in you still a heart, wounded or broken, and it will regenerate.
Your blog/post is sad and unfortunate, I hope you will find peace and comfort in your friends, of not there are those of us out herre on the other side of the screen who want you to be well.