it feels good to feel good! i did NOTHING today. thats right, NOTHING!!! it felt good. I had a lot to do, but i have tomorrow too.. and tomorrow is almost here actually. im really hungry too.. baby keeps kicking me too. kick. kick. kick! i can go get baby's nursery set. but i realized, i dont have any furniture.. my brother burnt it all... Read More
OMG... if its not a murder dream, or a love dream, its a sex dream!! god bless! what are my dreams trying to tell me? I need to have sex with the man i love and then kill him like a praying mantis? . . . haha. really tho.. they're either him killing me or him being murdered.. us being so happy in love... or... Read More
Katie,
I really just want to apologize to you for hurting your son. I'm sure he has made me out to be a complete demon, and I can not blame him. I am so sorry for hurting your son and putting him through the pain I caused. There is no excuse for my actions, but people do make mistakes. I am sorry I had to... Read More
i absolutely hate being in that city. every stop light im stuck at brings me to tears. it kills me. i keep having dreams that he kills me, literally. last night was the worst. two nights ago there were three of them. i can only remember two. we were vacationing in aspen, probably a honeymoon, and he tried to kill me and was shot and... Read More
man oh man what a night!! had an awesomely busy and very fast paced day at work, to be followed by nothing but tears, anger, and heartache. my brother is a jerk. he's not the only one though. but i feel good. the arguments we have just prove to me the conversation i had with darin to be true. i believe i've found my dream... Read More
very exciting doctors appointment today. everything is great with the baby! strong heart beat, when he felt me up, everything felt fine, and all of my labs came back just fine and normal. he also told me i am further along than what we were originally told. i am one week further along. that puts me at 17 weeks on monday instead of 16. gives... Read More
i've decided he is nothing to me. i can no longer feel sorry for myself. he doesnt want me, never did. he is no one to me. god that feels so good to say.. but its one thing to say it and another to believe it. i was looking at pictures of cortney's babies today. i cant wait for mine! my horoscope has been telling... Read More
it's just getting harder and harder every day. i havent stopped crying since yesterday morning. well, i have literally, but i am so down, i cant even fake a smile. this week has been very hard. i dont even know where to start. it's like im in a hole and i cant climb out. theres a lid on top and he has the key. he... Read More
welp, since i cant tell him about my dream, and i really feel the need to share, i suppose i'll enlighten you fine folks who read my blog. i dream of him every night. i've decided thats the only way i'll ever see him again, and i have to accept that. my dream was immaculate. yes, immaculate. we were married. it was the day of... Read More