missmay

People change. It's funny to watch how they do. Years ago I knew you as some boy. Just some pot smoking, Captain Morgan loving, adolescent. And now look at you and what you've become. A father, a husband, a soldier. I knew her too. Preacher's daughter; the first to church and the last to leave. Clean, smart, sophisticated; an over achiever. Now look at her....
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A few things for the day:

No sleep, maybe 3 hours due to nesting= baby is coming! And soon!!

No sleep also = very tired after 5 hour photo shoot today. But, we got some awesome stuff and luckily only got caught in the rain when I was completely nekkie in the middle of the creek.

Middle of the creek+ bare feet = pedicure.. kinda....
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I know today was supposed to be a happy day. It was my birthday. Today was probably one of the most depressing days I've had in a long time. I just went into the Pregnant group and there were labor pics. They made me cry even more than I have been all day. There is one so precious of the two of them, her looking...
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A certain new *special* friend of mine suggest I lay it on the line with Scott; just throw it out there- tell him how I want him..All of him. Or just at least see if I can get some booty out of it! I'm not shy, but I'm not so sure about this. . I don't want to be so forward. But god...
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Cry, big big big cry, more cry and more cry. Longest day ever, followed by longest day and more longest day. And some more cry. I didn't go to sleep until 12am, got up at 3am, went to work, got off at 4pm.. Tour of the birthing center at the hospital. Man am I glad my mom wasn't the only mom there. That was a...
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Who the fuck am I? I mean really, who am I?! I do a lot of driving at night, like in the dead of the night. There is no one on the highway at 4am on a Wednesday night. Let's me clear my head from work and fill it with other nonsense. I used to look at myself and say "Who is this girl?" I...
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Baby Aeson, you have 3 weeks until you're fully cooked.. Then it's just time to let you bake for that extra flavor. (This comes from the fact the guys at work are going to eat my baby. Horribly horribly disgustingly hilarious...SO WRONG but omg SO FUNNY!!)

YOU CAN COME OUT NOW!!! (almost)
A little photo time line! Amazing. I'll do the same thing with the...
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Dear Aeson,

I am so sorry about your father. He told me today he doesn't want anything to do with you until you are old enough to decide if you would rather "go live a real life in AZ" with him. Aeson, I am doing this alone. We are in this together. Everything I have and do is for you. I am so sorry your...
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I thought this emotional rollercoaster was gone. He just ruined my whole day.. And he wasn't even there. That's what the problem was. He's not there. I pre-registered at the hospital and scheduled my tour for the birthing centers. Every form I filled out and and every other question was, " what's the father's name? Will the father be present? Will the father this, that.....
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He and I had something beautiful
But so dysfunctional, it couldn't last
I loved him so but I let him go
'Cause I knew he'd never love me back

Such pain as this
Shouldn't have to be experienced
I'm still reeling from the loss,
Still a little bit delirious

Near to you, I am healing
But it's taking so long
'Cause though he's gone
And...
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