I would like to give a blanket apology to anyone who saw Danielsonc and I air some of our dirty laundry today. I don't want anyone to feel as though they should take sides. I said something that upset him, with out realizing he was in chat. He and I agreed to mutually block each other in chat, but he didn't have me blocked and saw something I typed that upset him. That's what basically got this whole thing started.
I don't want to get into the specifics of things, but questions will be asked, and have been asked already, so here's a short backstory.
We broke up in September but remained close after that (perhaps too close and perpetuating a relationship we both would give anything to have). I realized in December that It was important that he and I ended this pseudo romantic interlude once and for all so that we could continue on in our REAL lives. I really wanted to continue a friendship but with me currently in a new relationship, that proved impossible. Things became very rocky between us. No one is to blame here. I am struggling investing emotion in this new relationship because Dan has set the bar to almost unachievable standards.
Maybe us no longer talking does one of two things,
1. It distances us enough to allow us to repair our broken hearts.
2. It allows me to focus on Ryan, and attempt to build something with him with out my feelings for Dan getting in the way.
Out of anger I said I regret ever having loved him, but I didn't mean it (I hope you read that Dan). My heart feels like it has been completely stepped on and ground into the pavement as I am grieving the loss of a person who was there for me through everything, he was my inspiration to rebuild my life after my marriage ended, and it if wasn't for him, I wouldn't be where I am today and for that I am eternally grateful.
Again, I am really sorry that anyone had to see a little part of this in chat, and I am sorry for anyone who heard the phone conversation between Dan and I over his chat audio.
I don't want to get into the specifics of things, but questions will be asked, and have been asked already, so here's a short backstory.
We broke up in September but remained close after that (perhaps too close and perpetuating a relationship we both would give anything to have). I realized in December that It was important that he and I ended this pseudo romantic interlude once and for all so that we could continue on in our REAL lives. I really wanted to continue a friendship but with me currently in a new relationship, that proved impossible. Things became very rocky between us. No one is to blame here. I am struggling investing emotion in this new relationship because Dan has set the bar to almost unachievable standards.
Maybe us no longer talking does one of two things,
1. It distances us enough to allow us to repair our broken hearts.
2. It allows me to focus on Ryan, and attempt to build something with him with out my feelings for Dan getting in the way.
Out of anger I said I regret ever having loved him, but I didn't mean it (I hope you read that Dan). My heart feels like it has been completely stepped on and ground into the pavement as I am grieving the loss of a person who was there for me through everything, he was my inspiration to rebuild my life after my marriage ended, and it if wasn't for him, I wouldn't be where I am today and for that I am eternally grateful.
Again, I am really sorry that anyone had to see a little part of this in chat, and I am sorry for anyone who heard the phone conversation between Dan and I over his chat audio.