misshelena

Well...

ladies and gentleman, my life has taken a turn. for the first time in 6 years, im single. i feel a million things at once. i woke up after about two hours of sleep freaking out. my heart was racing, and i didnt know what was going on but im okay now that i've gotten more sleep. i just hope he's okay. i never want him to think he was a bad boyfriend, because he was a really good guy and this wasnt his fault at all. we just sort of grew apart. i personally believe the two of us were supposed to be together for that portion of our lives, to accomplish things together, and for each other...and i believe we did. now its time to move on, next chapter. i've got so many plans to work on myself. i want to spend as much time as i can learning just who i am without restrictions. i feel like the person i am now is only here because this is what i've been allowed to do over the years. i dont know who i really am under all the rules. im not sure what i want, and what i wanted because i couldnt have it. we'll see. i've got lots of time to think about it. i definitely want a new tattoo to mark this in time though. my mind is racing with ideas, and i have a couple...we'll see.