💕 After having a very lovely broadcast on Thursday 21st January & having some very deep conversations (something I absolutely adore). I was inspired to write this blog. 💕
❤️🥰 Something I am very passionate about is spreading positivity and I think that’s partly why I have fallen so in love with the SG Community 🥺😍- as well as obviously all the beautiful women & the ever so supportive community we have here. 🌎💕
So why am I so interested in positivity and all of us being able to contribute to saving this beautiful world we live in?!
As a young girl, I was very badly bullied because of my physical appearance- and when I say bullied, I mean- physically, emotionally, mentally as well as verbally. I grew up being bullied through all of my school years; Primary & Secondary (I’m English). And I never had much confidence whatsoever, I always felt so ugly & I couldn’t look in the mirror without crying a lot of the time. I felt disgusting. For many years, I wanted to end my life because of all the bullying, I was scared to go to school because I’ve had my head stuck down toilets, I’ve been hit, I’ve been laughed at and called vile names and I’ve been followed home from school- had eggs thrown at me, stones thrown at me, we even had a “for sale” sign put through my mothers car window, had people literally “piss” on our house doorstep- and I never ever felt secure or safe at school.
I had some other trauma happen in my life during my college years- but I won’t delve into that too much, but let’s just say, it was something that affected my life for many years and will probably continue to affect my life for the rest of my life. However, after that, I decided to move away from my home town and I went to University.... in many ways it was the best decision I ever made.
I really found myself at University and I was on a journey to falling in love with myself, pretty much. Now don’t get me wrong, I still have bad days- those memories come back to haunt me sometimes and it brings me down, but life has improved in so many ways (I mean I’m here, in the SG community, for goodness sake), which has always been a dream of mine since I was 15 years old and I never in a million years ever expected to be here. Ever.
I’ve met some amazing people since moving away and although I miss my family so much because with this pandemic I’ve not been able to see them for months- I do feel more myself than I ever have.
So there’s a bit of background information (not as detailed as it could be) but I wanted to get to the positive parts...
So, I’ve always enjoyed helping people, I started volunteering when I was 11 years old. I worked in a riding stable where I was able to learn about horse care but also able to lead the ponies around the riding schools with the children and watch them develop during their lessons which was always so lovely. Then I started volunteering at another riding centre a few years later for those with Physical Disabilities, we had a hoist to hoist them onto the horses but just seeing those who aren’t really able to move... be able to ride a horse, absolutely beautiful- I loved every minute of seeing their faces brighten up when they could do something they never thought they would be able to do. It was just a blessing to see.
Then I volunteered with an English program where we had a project to carry out and we had to project manage and do fundraising for this project. Now there was some amazing projects people did for this charity but what we did was workshops, we taught the individuals (those with mental illness, physical disabilities and learning difficulties) art, we did art classes with them and we talked to them... we had conversations with them and we spent time getting to know them and it was beautiful seeing some of them who were shy really come out of their shell and become more creative the more confidence they gained. I then had my first paid job at 16 years old, for this, I worked in a Care home (I was too young to do care itself) as here in the UK we have to be 18 years old to do care work; it used to be 16 but the laws changed. However, I used this as experience today shadow care workers and look at how they work with the individuals they were caring for. I was a housekeeper but I would take time out during my day to talk to the individuals receiving care, I’d listen to their stories and I’d fill up their water jugs and spend time with them- I always loved that part.
At University, I started working part-time as well, I worked in a Retirement Village as a Care Assistant as welL as studying for my degree full time. I absolutely loved this job, I really did. It gave me such a feeling in my heart, I really did get a bit attached to those I looked after and they always liked me because I always spent the time getting to know them and listening to their stories and I mean some of them just made me laugh so much- they had some great sense of humour. It was beautiful to hear about what they experienced in their lives. Things that maybe some of us will never get lucky enough to experience but it was beautiful to hear their stories. Then after two years, I was promoted to Senior Care Assistant and then a few months later I was promoted to Care Coordinator which meant I spent a lot more time doing administrative work and scheduling than actual care- which is something I was always so passionate about. However, I then moved company and I now work in Supported Living- I work with those with physical disabilities & mental illness rather than caring for the older adults. I’ve done work as a Team Leader (again more administrative work), but I decided to step down and work as a Support Work as that’s what I’m post passionate about is working closely with those individuals and helping them make the most out of their lives and I’ve seen so much improvement with working more closely with them and they have become very glad that I am there and many of them who aren’t usually the types to enjoy having their support hours- now enjoy their hours when they know I am on with them. & seeing them gain so much from it and improve is truly a beautiful thing to see and be a part of. I even have an individual who after two years of being in supported living has made that much improvement since I’ve been working with them to the point they are now looking at moving back into the wider community and getting their own place. Something that I am really proud of them for, they’ve been working so hard to do this and it’s been great just seeing them achieve more and more each day.
Going back to 2018 now, I also volunteered overseas in South-East Asia. I went to Cambodia to teach children and the local community about Nutrition & Health- including Diabetes, Hypertension and the effects unhealthy eating has on our health. Again, I was so passionate about this, having the chance to work overseas and teach was absolutely an incredible experience (as well as the chance to see another part of this beautiful world we live it) & experiencing different cultures.
Not only that, but even in my modelling, I’ve managed to do mentoring with new models and help them develop their confidence, self-esteem and their modelling skills and I honestly just get so proud to see them develop into such absolutely stunning models. I have my own modelling group in which I mentor these beautiful people and help them achieve more from their work. I’ve seen individuals who never found themselves attractive suddenly fall in love with themselves and because of that, they’ve achieved so much more than they were previously. I am looking at creating my own Magazine in the next few months which will be available on MagCloud so if anyone would like to see the development of the models I work with- I’d appreciate that support so much.
When it comes to individuals- I want to help build everyone’s confidence up as much as I possibly can because I do truly do believe that with kindness, patience and uplifting others- maybe we could have a chance of saving this world. There is a lot of hate in this world and it definitely has a very ugly side to it but when you work with people closely and help them to love themselves more and love each other more you do see such a difference in how they treat others. I’m only 22 years old but I’ve seen a lot already and I do truly believe that love & positivity will save this world. The more people you help, the more kindness you show to others.... will help those other people to do the same, it has a knock on affect and just imagine if everyone was kind, just what a different world we would live in?
So use this SG community to build each other up- men, women, trans, non-binary individuals... absolutely EVERYONE deserves to feel loved, to feel confident and to feel worthy.
And maybe, just maybe... we can make a difference- as they say- BE THE DIFFERENCE TO MAKE A DIFFERENCE.
Let’s be pro-positivity, let’s be loving, let’s be supportive and let’s build each other up.... the world needs more of that.
Lots of love & bright blessings,
MissGenevieveX