This time last year i was just out of hospital in a lot of pain and alone, but things looked up and for a while i was truly happy then in april things all changed and although i have someone who loves and adores me there is still something missing, i wish i could explain it and i wish i could give up all my stupid fears and sort everything but it really isnt that simple.
If I leave now i leave behind my kitten and some good friends and possibly get myself a lifetime ban from my favorite club in the world. Ive been sitting alone all day today trying to figure things out and all i can think is that im not happy, i dont feel loved, and im desperate to change myself
Ugh I have a 10 hour shift tomorrow maybe that will take my mind off of things . . . . . .
If I leave now i leave behind my kitten and some good friends and possibly get myself a lifetime ban from my favorite club in the world. Ive been sitting alone all day today trying to figure things out and all i can think is that im not happy, i dont feel loved, and im desperate to change myself
Ugh I have a 10 hour shift tomorrow maybe that will take my mind off of things . . . . . .
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waterfordman:
Decisions are the hardest things to do in the world as they are always a gamble. The question is how much are you really prepared to gamble and how much do you really want to quit the comfort zone ?
the_shine: