missbonnieblu

I finally got my surgery yesterday. It's awesome to know what's actually going on even though it's actually way worse than i thought it was going to be. I do have endometriosis and it's at a stage 4 which is as bad as you can get. Worst case scenario is i have to have a hysterectomy.

It's all really scary...the lesions that's caused by it all has ended up bounding my bowels, kidneys and uterus together. But there's nothing we can do at this stage so i'm basically on panadine forte everyday to manage the pain.

I feel like my friends have done the check in to make themselves feel better. LIke "i've called, i've done the friend thing" but no-one's come round to see me. No texts to see how i'm going and whenever someone asks how i am they just don't listen. And these are my bestest, bestest friends. Maybe i just have high expectations....all i know is i'm sad, scared and lonely and i don't know what to do or who to talk to. I don;t even know if this is me coming off painkillers or mood swings. But a few friends who i'm not really that close to have read up about it all but my bestest didn't even listen when i explained it. I don't think people actually realise how serious this is. I really feel that you truly do go through everything in this life alone sometimes. Sorry for the probably really confusing rant...damn drugs I'm just getting cabin fever and feeling shitty and unsupported. They are there for me. I just have to ask more instead of expect.

Anyways, please..please tell me something about your day...