missbernie

scott lost his keys this morning. he mentioned that things like this have been happening more often. i was thinking about it and the y have been for me too. i think i've figured it out:
i have no goals.
none.
i have nothing that gets me moving in the morning. don't get me wrong, i love scott and gunny and my family, and i don't feel that life is pointless, i just have no set plan, no specific prizr to be won. i want the same things other people do, money, power, etc... but nothing specific like, a starring role in my own sitcom (but that would be sweet). now that i have figured out my problem, i must fix it. i can't think of any goals that are really worth it. i mean there's my degree that i'll get in may but then what? my masters? my PhD? then what? teach at a university? i don't really want to do that. i'd love a PhD but i don't know what i need it for. there's always to be rich but then what? sit around and spend my money on worthless crap? give it all to charities that i don't believe in? i'm sorry but that's not motivating me.

*sigh*
how'd this happen? this is not the adult i'd wanted to be. i'm going to be 26 soon and still, i'm not where i want to be. i don't have a life plan. shit, i don't even have a plan for today!