mislaid

I'm sad. I graduated from Hawaii Pacific University tonight. The ceremony was nice. It was at the shell...which was beautiful, and my mom got me over a hundred bucks worth of beautiful leis. I smelled amazing, and it felt awesome. My friend also got me a haku (flower crown) to go over my cap. I was up to my eyes in flowers. It was great.

Kind of bummed out though...cause I didn't feel like my family made a big deal of it. They are too caught up in their own shit to take the time to make me feel like today was my day. The criticism was still in full effect. Whatever. I got some great pictures...so I'll post them soon.

Tomorrow my best friend Melvin is taking off work and we are going with my brothers to go surf north shore. Thank god for Melvin...he is the only one keeping me sane while my family is here. There is so much tension between my mom and dad, not to mention the rest of us. Yesterday my dad pulled me aside and aplogized to me that the whole family has been treating me like shit. He said he was going to have a talk with them. Nothing has changed though. Dude...this is really making me feel like I want to move to Australia just to get away from them. Like Hawaii is too close now. Which is so wierd because I have always been close with my family. This trip has not been a good one for me, that's for sure. No one has shown me that they are here to visit me, or celebrate my achievement. Instead it is all about them. Their vacation, their condo. I'm over it. Even at dinner, which we all went to after the ceremony, it was like any other dinner. No one in my family told me how proud they were. Oh and did I mention that after I graduated when I went to meet my family in the stands, half of them were gone. They had gone ahead to the restaraunt to make sure we weren't late for our reservation. My own fucking father. We just talked about that...and he apologized. My friend Tia was supposed to join us for the graduation and dinner. She never showed up though. Dude I'm just dissapointed in people right now. I feel pretty let down. Hopefully the water will do me good tomorrow. Hope all is well with you. Aloha.