mishi

i cant help what i feel... i cant deny it... some call it mania, it could be passion, it could be love... its totally me.
no one can stop this. even the medicine cant. I could be sudated with my geodon and i would still feel this way... it'll never change it... i took the geodon to hide my feelings, to stop feeling alive and free... i conformed and now i'm ashamed of it... i want to take it back... but i cant.

there is always a way out and the only way out is through misery is to lose everything... to be lost myself

locking me up and throwing away the key wont do me any good... that wont save me... the hate will grow inside of me and i will hurt whomever stands in my way... becuase that is me. i'm not proud of it. but its true.

you cant tame a wild creature, u should never break thier spirit... its just not right...