I suffer (enjoy) with extra sensibility. I worry about everything and everyone. Extremely jealous. Easy to get involved. Hysterical.
I spend lots of my energy just for trying to take it easy. I try to defend my close people from myself, my own emotions. But sometimes (and pretty often) I’m breaking. And so crying till 3 pm like stupid, and keep speaking monologues at first with myself and space. It’s ok. For me it’s ok.
Analyzing my own previous experience and experience of my acquaintances, I can find out two behaviors patterns of the close people: they’re breaking too because empathy is a strong thing, or they say «take sedative and go sleep”. So on in the first case this «сlose” person isn’t close at all, he’s just here and now in this very moment of your life. Maybe it’s a long moment, but just a moment anyway. Also I, glad to notice that when I meet with my exes and there is the same situation their eyes are burning. So you understand that he’s on your side, even if you have your own lives. So you crying not by the reason of wistfulness, but because of joy, there are the strong hands that can defend you from all the demons even if they’re in your head. Keep the ones who are really with you and who are yours.
@missy @rambo
