um, i read your previous journal, and i have this to say:
the only way out is through.
allow yourself to feel the anger and the hurt, go smash bottles on the pavement, whatever it takes. if you try to suppress it--to not give her the satisfaction of really getting to you-- you'll only end up hurting yourself. it'll come back and bite you when you least expect it, like when you're trying to have something good with someone else down the road.
aunt invisigirl means well.......sorry to give unsolicited advice.
seriously man, what is it with us an women? it's all too familiar. it's not like we're fucking trying for all this drama shit, y'know? is stability too much to ask for?
the only way out is through.
allow yourself to feel the anger and the hurt, go smash bottles on the pavement, whatever it takes. if you try to suppress it--to not give her the satisfaction of really getting to you-- you'll only end up hurting yourself. it'll come back and bite you when you least expect it, like when you're trying to have something good with someone else down the road.
aunt invisigirl means well.......sorry to give unsolicited advice.