So there it starts again...
I have friend, this girl whom I met right after I broke up with the ex...And as it happens in situations like that we became close really fast,
and not just because she's really cool and talented and nice, probably also because we both needed affection at that point in our lives. Of course as it happens we slept with each other once, but I refused to do it again, because it was just a wrong thing to do for friends, I thought... Plus I was still in-love with the ex and couldn't imagine a healthy relationship with that girl... And I told her all that, and she knew the situation, because I would talk about it constantly... Well as time passed by, we would hang out a lot, plus we have a lot of mutual friends... and apparently she has developed "deeper" feelings for me... Everyone who knows me, knows that I have a sarcastic-asshole-sense-of-humor and most of the time i'm brutally honest with pretty much everyone... Well, I guess on a few occasions I have
offended her by saying stuff or something. Ok, I always offend people, just because I have no brakes... I'll admit to that... That was the beginning.
Yesterday I get an email from her basically exploding in my face with all this at once... I got a little pissed off... And then we talked on the phone and she told me about her feelings and my inability to do anything about it... And that she's gonna have to pull away from me because of her feelings...
I got even more angry then... and she hung up on me... I shouldn't have, I know... But it just drives me insane to think that I'll be loosing friends over
this shit and good friends too... I just can't deal with that. And then I realized that what she's doing to me I did to the ex a few weeks back... But I had
a reason -- seeing her would torture me, I would get physically ill... Plus we had a relationship and I was in love... It's different here... right?
Well, it could be the payback for it... Someone up there is really looking out for me...
I have friend, this girl whom I met right after I broke up with the ex...And as it happens in situations like that we became close really fast,
and not just because she's really cool and talented and nice, probably also because we both needed affection at that point in our lives. Of course as it happens we slept with each other once, but I refused to do it again, because it was just a wrong thing to do for friends, I thought... Plus I was still in-love with the ex and couldn't imagine a healthy relationship with that girl... And I told her all that, and she knew the situation, because I would talk about it constantly... Well as time passed by, we would hang out a lot, plus we have a lot of mutual friends... and apparently she has developed "deeper" feelings for me... Everyone who knows me, knows that I have a sarcastic-asshole-sense-of-humor and most of the time i'm brutally honest with pretty much everyone... Well, I guess on a few occasions I have
offended her by saying stuff or something. Ok, I always offend people, just because I have no brakes... I'll admit to that... That was the beginning.
Yesterday I get an email from her basically exploding in my face with all this at once... I got a little pissed off... And then we talked on the phone and she told me about her feelings and my inability to do anything about it... And that she's gonna have to pull away from me because of her feelings...
I got even more angry then... and she hung up on me... I shouldn't have, I know... But it just drives me insane to think that I'll be loosing friends over
this shit and good friends too... I just can't deal with that. And then I realized that what she's doing to me I did to the ex a few weeks back... But I had
a reason -- seeing her would torture me, I would get physically ill... Plus we had a relationship and I was in love... It's different here... right?
Well, it could be the payback for it... Someone up there is really looking out for me...
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about your situation. it sucks. i know how it goes. ive lost a lot of friend cause of feelings like that. and all you can do is hope that they snap out of it, or just give them some time. time is good for heeling.
xoxo csilla
as for your journal, i say . . . be disapointed, be angry . . . but her feelings are valid, and she has to take care of herself the best she can. i fall in love with my best friends all the time, and since they never love me back . . . in the end, i always have to move on. sometimes this means severing ties . . . it's only for my own sanity, and shouldn't be taken personally.
xoxooxox.