miserabelle

I need to lighten up, but I'm having trouble at the moment... I don't know if it's all the shit that's been going on, or if it's my hormones adjusting to not being all pilled up any more but there's something really wrong that I don't know how to fix. I'm just going off at the slightest thing, if you start me crying it's pretty hard to stop. My mom kinda wrecked my favourite bra today (gorgeous, leopard with pink lace) by washing it with an unknown item that ran... so now it's kind of purple/grey toned, and it's not in the stores any more. I dunno... I was pretty upset 'cause I'd got it with Christmas money and it was really new, and really amazing but I just could not stop crying.

Mom really reacted by getting annoyed that I was upset, but I think she probably felt kinda guilty 'cause of what had happened. She's gonna try to get some dye remover, see if that helps at all. She tends to show more affection to the cats that she does to us.

Happened again, for no reason really when my sister and I were playfighting... I just started crying. We haven't really talked since, 'cause she told me to stop being so stupid, and that she hates it when I'm like this. I'm sure it's pretty frustrating, but I'm also sure that when she's upset I've been more than sympathetic, and I'd never just tell her to shut up. Shouting at people when they're upset is really, really, really not a helpful thing to do. I'm guessing she's gonna do that thing where she manages to convince herself that it's my fault, and expect an apology.



I'm staying at Kay's tonight, I'm kinda hoping I won't still be feeling awful. These journals are depressing, no? I'll try to be more entertaining in future.

xx