I should never have said that things were amazing with the boyfriend, I completely jinxed myself.
We're... currently having a little break, I only saw him yesterday and I miss him like crazy - I've been forcing myself not to text him, I'm staying away from msn and just the thought of not being able to talk to him is just awful. Stuff was going so amazingly, and then he started to have little doubts... which turned into huge great massive doubts over the last two weeks. He says he wants a relationship, he wants it with me and nobody else but he just doesn't feel right at the moment. I'm hoping some proper time apart will trick him into believing that he misses me so we can make up and he can tell me that he loves me - and mean it. A break is really the last resort though, I've never done it before and it's a little weird to get used to especially since I see him and talk to him so much usually.
On the 16th we'd been seeing each other for seven months, I pretty much spent the whole day crying.
Today went off to a dreadful start - aside from the obvious. My family were all tense and weird with each other this morning, my mom pretty much told me that my entire outfit was awful (which it wasn't, I looked fantastic thank you very much - although now I've replaced my cowboy boots with hello kitty slippers [love]) and we all left the house in a completely awful mood. We went out for my friend's babies' Christening... I've never actually been to a church service before (aside from funerals) and it was... alright, a lot of the people were kind of patronising though which I can't bear.
The reception was better, I spent a lot of the time holding babies and playing with a little girl Megan (who later threw her red toy car in my food) who is AWESOME - I love her, she wasn't too impressed when the priest poured the water on her head... she's really curious about everything though, she'd brought lots of little toy animals to the service, spent most of it playing with those and making a farm on the pews.
Roar! I need to do some more work D:
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We're... currently having a little break, I only saw him yesterday and I miss him like crazy - I've been forcing myself not to text him, I'm staying away from msn and just the thought of not being able to talk to him is just awful. Stuff was going so amazingly, and then he started to have little doubts... which turned into huge great massive doubts over the last two weeks. He says he wants a relationship, he wants it with me and nobody else but he just doesn't feel right at the moment. I'm hoping some proper time apart will trick him into believing that he misses me so we can make up and he can tell me that he loves me - and mean it. A break is really the last resort though, I've never done it before and it's a little weird to get used to especially since I see him and talk to him so much usually.
On the 16th we'd been seeing each other for seven months, I pretty much spent the whole day crying.
Today went off to a dreadful start - aside from the obvious. My family were all tense and weird with each other this morning, my mom pretty much told me that my entire outfit was awful (which it wasn't, I looked fantastic thank you very much - although now I've replaced my cowboy boots with hello kitty slippers [love]) and we all left the house in a completely awful mood. We went out for my friend's babies' Christening... I've never actually been to a church service before (aside from funerals) and it was... alright, a lot of the people were kind of patronising though which I can't bear.
The reception was better, I spent a lot of the time holding babies and playing with a little girl Megan (who later threw her red toy car in my food) who is AWESOME - I love her, she wasn't too impressed when the priest poured the water on her head... she's really curious about everything though, she'd brought lots of little toy animals to the service, spent most of it playing with those and making a farm on the pews.
Roar! I need to do some more work D:
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Cowboy boots are justice
Space is an awkward card of play in a relationship and I am not sure if i have ever had a serious relationship where space was not needed for a variety or reasons. Sometimes we can take each other for granted and then space does help the levels of appreciation when we are reunited with a hightend sense of passion and great fullness for what we have. Good luck honey and I hope it all works out in that area for you