Today is July 4th independence day .. A day of joy for most Americans... Normally I spend it with my friends.. But all my friends are either in NY or California .. We usually do something fun today then watch fireworks.. But today all I could think of is my family and listening to the plans on putting my grandmother in a hospice and the plans on what to do with her body .. I even got to see the urn in which her ashes will be placed.. I was not allowed to cry because I ha to be the strong one ... I'm still looking for work .. I really hope I start working soon ... I'm losing my mind with all this not doing anything .. Clean clean clean that's all I have been doing.. I don't like feeling this helpless.. I can't seem to get a job and my grams illnesses ... It's a lot for one person to deal with with very little to no form of outlit to help release my stress and broken heart ... I just keep holding on to the thought that things will get better .. That all things happen for a reason .. I don't know the reason they there is a reason
xynnedra:
Can I kick the guy in the nutz who came up with that saying of everything happens for a reason!!!
misa_blake:
Please do .. cause this is way to much pain for me to handle alone