strife. my life is myered by it constantly. and i get little to no repreive from it and it starting to wear my patience thin. and everywhere i look i see the exact oppisite of what dogs me at all times. when others come to me foranything (help, advice, ect) they always fell better aftter wards. is it a curse for those that are gifted with being a postive beacon in the lives of others is a strife torn vessel themselves. thats the way its looking to me as of late. i find myself detaching myself from strong positive feelings cause the moment i do i know that an equally depressing event will occur within no time. it has yet to fail. and im getting sick of it. all i ak for is one break from they cycle. is that to much to ask. this emotional tug of fucking war needs to quit. 
and one more thing. my computer seem to be fighting a lossing battal with java script pages. including this one. i cant view the sets via galeries and the pages never fully load. i have similer problems with other site too. i cant view the cartoons on illwillpress from my home PC anymore. i have to see them on the slow POS i have access to at work. is there anyone here that can maybe tell me what i can to to fix this?
and one more thing. my computer seem to be fighting a lossing battal with java script pages. including this one. i cant view the sets via galeries and the pages never fully load. i have similer problems with other site too. i cant view the cartoons on illwillpress from my home PC anymore. i have to see them on the slow POS i have access to at work. is there anyone here that can maybe tell me what i can to to fix this?