So, for those of you who are wondering...I did get exactly what I wanted, and more, at potluck the other night. I know you guys were worried. It was so much more than sexy times. I had a new experience with a wonderful young woman, and we talked for what seemed like hours. There was yummy yummy pizza, made by another beautiful lady. It was just a really nice potluck. And I'm glad I went, because I don't know when I'll be able to attend another one.
After talking to Andy last week, I really have no desire to talk to him again anytime soon. He unloaded on me in a majorly, not ok way. Telling me that I really need to be careful about who I vent to and the things that I vent, because that will push people away...people who internalize those kinds of emotions...and it caused him deep emotional distress. So when I was having a problem in my other relationship, with Rose, I tried pushing her away because I didn't think it would be ok for her to deal with my problems. The truth it though, she wants to, cause she loves me. And she won't let me push her away. She told me she wasn't going anywhere. I was totally put in my place. She said what Andy said was wrong...and he thought he could be someone he wasn't. He's clearly not ready for something more serious, and he's not the type of person to offer emotional support. I no longer feel bad about him breaking up with me.
I'm much happier recently. I'm doing my best to get my shit together. It hasn't been working so well, but at least I'm trying. I hope I can attend classes in a couple of weeks. I'm trying to save my money for books. And I have a doctor's appointment next week, and I hope she can fill out my medical forms without my records...because I am not getting my records fast enough. That's my fault though...I should have done this sooner.
Also looking for more jobs. I need a job during the school year. I just bought my pass for a very special event happening in November, called the Geeky Kink Event, done by the wonderful Jeff Mach. I'm very excited about going, and very excited about meeting Jeff. I hope everything works out.
After talking to Andy last week, I really have no desire to talk to him again anytime soon. He unloaded on me in a majorly, not ok way. Telling me that I really need to be careful about who I vent to and the things that I vent, because that will push people away...people who internalize those kinds of emotions...and it caused him deep emotional distress. So when I was having a problem in my other relationship, with Rose, I tried pushing her away because I didn't think it would be ok for her to deal with my problems. The truth it though, she wants to, cause she loves me. And she won't let me push her away. She told me she wasn't going anywhere. I was totally put in my place. She said what Andy said was wrong...and he thought he could be someone he wasn't. He's clearly not ready for something more serious, and he's not the type of person to offer emotional support. I no longer feel bad about him breaking up with me.
I'm much happier recently. I'm doing my best to get my shit together. It hasn't been working so well, but at least I'm trying. I hope I can attend classes in a couple of weeks. I'm trying to save my money for books. And I have a doctor's appointment next week, and I hope she can fill out my medical forms without my records...because I am not getting my records fast enough. That's my fault though...I should have done this sooner.
Also looking for more jobs. I need a job during the school year. I just bought my pass for a very special event happening in November, called the Geeky Kink Event, done by the wonderful Jeff Mach. I'm very excited about going, and very excited about meeting Jeff. I hope everything works out.
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miss_joy:
Just stay focused. I'm sure it's your first priority and keep coming at it from different angles to find a solution. I'm sure this isn't the first time this has happened at the school so perhaps talking to someone different may help. I know saying not to stress doesn't help 
just make sure you're doing all you can.
just make sure you're doing all you can. 
robotclash:
Thanks for the kind words, ma'am. We need to talk, when you get a chance, I have a questing about something I'm sure you'll find interesting.