mira77

2:50 in the morning, just poured a glass of red. Getting through my 3rd bottle. Work in 6 hrs or less, actually, awake in 5.

Why am I sharing this, I have no idea, just a random blog. Happy though, which makes a massive change considering the recent hell. A friend I made on facebook from a while back sent me a heart in one of the apps. She attached a message saying I really believe this to be true and the heart was a one in a million heart. I'm not kidding I almost cried when i saw it. It means so much to me, the idea that someone out there actually can see me as something positive. It makes me wonder if I'm really the pathetic idiot I paint myself as. Another facebook friend told me that she considers me the the only person she can talk to. Normally I'd say am I the guy who get's the people who are a few sandwiches short of a picnic, but for once, there's two really great people actually recognising I have something to offer. It's a first and it feels really good after spending 18 months being beaten down.

Hey, it's now 3am, three bottles down, work in 5 hrs. Normally I'd be considering how to kill myself but right now I'm happy to hang around for more facebook messages