Weekly homework! @rambo @missy
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I think this is something I have in mind a lot nowadays, I guess it has something to do with turning 30. And the first thing I need in order to speak to my teenage me is...a picture of my teenage years!
The first thing that comes to my mind is of course, Pink Floyd's "Time" and not just because it's one of my favorite bands in the world, but because the lyrics are SO spot on...
"Tired of lying in the sunshine staying home to watch the rain, you are young and life is long and there is time to kill today. And then one day you find ten years have got behind you, no one told you when to run, you missed the starting gun"
When I was young I felt the brightest kid in the block, I though College was going to be as easy as High School, I thought I was going to get a great job because Hi, I'm me! and that my life was going to be all parties, travelling the world and never dealing with responsibilities...100% Millennial, right? But then the real world hit me in the face like a bludger (Any HP fans out here?): College was FUCKING HARD, I was failing my exams for the first time in my life; I was working part time and my money disappeared before I could tell; My friends who had always had trouble in High School were doing great and me, the smart kid, was completely lost.
I wish I could go back in time to my teenage years and tell myself "Honey, get down from the pony (an Argentinean phrase that basically means Get Real), open your books and prepare for what's coming" but I would also say "Enjoy your childhood and teenage years, this peace, happiness and carefree feelings won't be back. Stop wanting to grow up, enjoy this!"...which I know, both advises are a bit contradictory but hey, life isn't always easy xD
Another advice I would give myself, and the most important one in my opinion, is (quoting another great musician) "Emancipate yourself from mental slavery".
I grew up in a catholic family and went to a catholic school, nuns and all. All my life I tried to fit it, when I was clearly fitting out. I was told "save yourself for your husband" and I couldn't care less about marriage..."Be modest" and I wanted to be an erotic model..."Believe in God" and all I did was question his existence. But instead of breaking with all that, I was blaming myself and feeling I was wrong, that I was a deviant girl who was having this horrible after school experience because of my evilness. It took me 25 years to free myself, to stand up to my family and say "You know what, I'm not catholic anymore, I'm agnostic and I'm proud of it" and after I did it, everything came into place. I met my AMAZING boyfriend, the first guy in my life I could be 100% myself with and who loved me for who I was. I decided to change my career, to move out of my house and life started to feel like my teenage years again.
And as I write this I keep thinking...given the chance, would I change my past? And I guess no, I wouldn't. Because if Back to the Future taught me anything, it's that changing the past changes the future and I'm living the best present I could think of!!! I'm living with the love of my life, working in a great company, modelling, I'm even a SG Hopefull for Christ sake! It may have taken me a while to get here, but I sure loved the trip.
