Well its turns out I'm annoying, loud,rude and angry when I drink. I get stupid as all hell and talk shit to people and run my mouth like an asshole. I'm sick and tired of going to parties and situations where there are drugs and alcohol. I'm not saying its not my fault that I get so drunk I black out , but I think surroundings play an equal roll too. I had this same problem with drugs when I was in high school. The only way I quit was to basically put myself into seclusion and just not see anybody who I did drugs with. I don't want to get that extreme with this situation I'm in right now, but something has too change. I hate when people are friends because they get fucked up together. Take away the drugs and alcohol and then what do you have? probably not much of a relationship at all.
