i just got back from 930 after having seen the unseen, anti-flag and the casualties.
i'm gross and sweaty.
but i'm super-happy.
so i'm going to have a shower, and then i'm going to come back and complete this entry...
so.
it was one of the best shows i've been to in a really long time.
and i know i say that about every show i go to.
i have so much stuff in my head right now, i feel like i need to get some of those ideas out, and maybe i'll make it fuller, and better written later on.
firstly, being at that show tonight was probably the greatest sense of belonging i've ever felt in my life.
it was probably the first time at a show i've been able to throw my inhibitions to the wind and just dance and go off and have a good time.
i didn't feel watched, or judged or anything.
it was an uncommon sense of family. of being a part of a sense and actually loving it and all those people.
singing along to anti-flag and the casualties and just realizeing why i got into the punk rock in the first place. even though sometimes i got from point a to here seems pretty blurred, but now it makes a lot more sense to me.
i think i've always have convoluted reasons for being into this, reasons i don't really think matter anymore.
but i really love that feeling of family, of being a part of something
being an 'us' instead of a 'them'.
i love washington dc
and i love punk rock
also, i had this realization when i realized that just like me and nicole [nicole who loves punk rock, but is too diverse to promise herself. i love nicole, she was so natural tonight, it was awesome.]
i realised that all those kids just like me, go back to lives where they're kind of alone and are different and alone. which affected me a little bit, just to feel so unalone because of that.
i can seriously say, i haven't felt like i connected with something or someone like that since i was like 15 in south africa on vacation with my parents and read 'long hard road out of hell' with my parents. very similar feeling.
also, there was a point where one of the guys from positive force [an organization i love, my first intro. to positive force dc was at my first 930 show, my first DC show and my first good charlotte show, all very special things to me]
and he was talking about how people would tell us [punks] that we'll always feel different when we grow up, and that he's 46 and still a punk rocker, and that growing up and loosing that passion is bullshit.
i loved it.
and i nearly cried. because seriously, i get put into situations everyday which make me feel like i don't belong and that in some twisted way, because i am doing something i love, with my life, myself, my studies etc. that i'm wasting my life. or that i'll grow out of it. and i dont' want that.
yeah. it was awesome.
i also returned alec's show-call and he said he might be able to come down for the misfits on friday next week.
and nicole told him she was going to put his dick in a meat grinder. which was just, all in all. pretty funny.
i'm gross and sweaty.
but i'm super-happy.
so i'm going to have a shower, and then i'm going to come back and complete this entry...
so.
it was one of the best shows i've been to in a really long time.
and i know i say that about every show i go to.
i have so much stuff in my head right now, i feel like i need to get some of those ideas out, and maybe i'll make it fuller, and better written later on.
firstly, being at that show tonight was probably the greatest sense of belonging i've ever felt in my life.
it was probably the first time at a show i've been able to throw my inhibitions to the wind and just dance and go off and have a good time.
i didn't feel watched, or judged or anything.
it was an uncommon sense of family. of being a part of a sense and actually loving it and all those people.
singing along to anti-flag and the casualties and just realizeing why i got into the punk rock in the first place. even though sometimes i got from point a to here seems pretty blurred, but now it makes a lot more sense to me.
i think i've always have convoluted reasons for being into this, reasons i don't really think matter anymore.
but i really love that feeling of family, of being a part of something
being an 'us' instead of a 'them'.
i love washington dc
and i love punk rock
also, i had this realization when i realized that just like me and nicole [nicole who loves punk rock, but is too diverse to promise herself. i love nicole, she was so natural tonight, it was awesome.]
i realised that all those kids just like me, go back to lives where they're kind of alone and are different and alone. which affected me a little bit, just to feel so unalone because of that.
i can seriously say, i haven't felt like i connected with something or someone like that since i was like 15 in south africa on vacation with my parents and read 'long hard road out of hell' with my parents. very similar feeling.
also, there was a point where one of the guys from positive force [an organization i love, my first intro. to positive force dc was at my first 930 show, my first DC show and my first good charlotte show, all very special things to me]
and he was talking about how people would tell us [punks] that we'll always feel different when we grow up, and that he's 46 and still a punk rocker, and that growing up and loosing that passion is bullshit.
i loved it.
and i nearly cried. because seriously, i get put into situations everyday which make me feel like i don't belong and that in some twisted way, because i am doing something i love, with my life, myself, my studies etc. that i'm wasting my life. or that i'll grow out of it. and i dont' want that.
yeah. it was awesome.
i also returned alec's show-call and he said he might be able to come down for the misfits on friday next week.
and nicole told him she was going to put his dick in a meat grinder. which was just, all in all. pretty funny.