I was never the guy who wanted to go out with the prettiest girl in the room. Maybe that was because I was never the cutest guy in the room and I was well aware of that. But what I did look for was the most sincere person because that's what I had to offer in return.
Is that to say you are not beautiful? By what the world measures beauty you are without a doubt incredibly beautiful. No one would think to question that. But how I see you is different. I see your kindness, your individuality, your love for your children, your love of art and music, your spirituality and all of these things are far more attractive to me than physical characteristics. These are the things that make you truly beautiful.
You shared with me openly and honestly that you suffer from depression. That you have anxiety issues and have attempted suicide. Any rational person would question whether it would be worth the effort to date someone with so many problems. It will not be easy to love you. It will be painful and I will feel lonely when you lack the strength to communicate, when against your better angels you will be angry with me for asking more than you are capable of giving. But I can't recall a moment in my life when I have ever chosen the easy path simply because it was available. And if that means I will be hurt in the process than so be it. Hurt me, make me cry. I will suffer this love for you. And when you ask for forgiveness you will be forgiven. Now and forever.
You opened the doors of your soul to me. Perhaps accidentally. Maybe you didn't intend to let me in or maybe you needed someone to hold you just for one day and not a lifetime. Maybe you don't want from me what I want from you. A chance to have you in my arms again, to care for you, to kiss you, to love you. Maybe this is an improbable dream against all odds. I'm still willing to give this everything I have.