I am in serious danger of being the first person in history to actually die of boredom. Maybe I should get a second job or something... I just have no ability to productively use my free time. If my brain would process information the way it's supposed to I could get a lot of reading done, but no dice.
I made the mistake of going to sleep early last night... so i woke up at 2 am and now my sleep hours are going to be all screwed up. i should have just drank a shitload of coffee... or perhaps an assload... and stuck it out, but it's pretty fucking depressing sitting around by myself on a saturday night because i can't stand to go out and be around other people... plus i have 80 cents in my bank account so i can't afford to do anything... feh.
on the upside, the continuing "trying to make fried rice" experiment came out better than usual tonight. i'm sweating onion though...
dug up some stuff on the internet about Ootomo, a sort of monotheistic shinto sect in late 19th century Japan that was banned and persecuted during the war by the Japanese government... intresting stuff. http://www.oomoto.or.jp/English/enDokt/dokt-en.html
i need to get off my ass and start meditating more. i need my fucking inner peace right fucking now, GODDAMN IT!
i need some sort of breakthrough or kick in the pants or i'm going to spend the rest of my life walking around my apartment in circles, massaging my temples and mumbling "ihatemyselfihatemyselfihatemyself"... I'm only a drug problem and 30 years away from being the crazy old guy who stands in the median and argues with passing cars on the freeway. throw a bagel to me on your way to work, if you don't mind.
I made the mistake of going to sleep early last night... so i woke up at 2 am and now my sleep hours are going to be all screwed up. i should have just drank a shitload of coffee... or perhaps an assload... and stuck it out, but it's pretty fucking depressing sitting around by myself on a saturday night because i can't stand to go out and be around other people... plus i have 80 cents in my bank account so i can't afford to do anything... feh.
on the upside, the continuing "trying to make fried rice" experiment came out better than usual tonight. i'm sweating onion though...
dug up some stuff on the internet about Ootomo, a sort of monotheistic shinto sect in late 19th century Japan that was banned and persecuted during the war by the Japanese government... intresting stuff. http://www.oomoto.or.jp/English/enDokt/dokt-en.html
i need to get off my ass and start meditating more. i need my fucking inner peace right fucking now, GODDAMN IT!
i need some sort of breakthrough or kick in the pants or i'm going to spend the rest of my life walking around my apartment in circles, massaging my temples and mumbling "ihatemyselfihatemyselfihatemyself"... I'm only a drug problem and 30 years away from being the crazy old guy who stands in the median and argues with passing cars on the freeway. throw a bagel to me on your way to work, if you don't mind.
But yeah, if you do move to Montana, I will definantely throw a bagel to you. I love talking to those guys on the side of the road; they're interesting
Hope Arizona isn't too hot.