mindless

I inhale sadness.
I exhale loneliness.
I broke off half a tooth on my tongue
ring.
I've been told I have deer eyes.
I love Starburst fruitchews.
I can't read about medical conditions
without feeling sick and fainting.
I love silver rings.
I like The Real World.
I love shelltoed Adidas.
I own over five hundred cds.
I love to give people gifts.
I think Vanilla Ice got a bad rap.
I love Toffee flavored cappucinos.
I like working big words into my
sentences when have a conversation.
I get really quiet when in large groups.
I've never seen a Disney animated
movie.
I wake up every morning with a feeling
of hopelessness.
I go to bed every night with a feeling
of hopefulness.
I love taking pictures.
I never answer my telephone.
I want a completely new wardrobe.
I only tuck my shirts in at work.
I've only worn a tie one time.
I own twelve hats. I only wear three of
them.
I want to be excepted by everyone.

So I made a resume this morning and
dropped it off at Sunset Novelties today. The manager was there and asked me some stuff about why I want to work there, and I think I did a good job of answering him. He did cut me off a few times and seemed to be sizing me up, but I think I worked him too. Nice guy. He said I would get a call within a week. I so hope I get the job. Salary, and at least 60 hours a week. I can do it. I want to prove myself and feel some sense of purpose. BUT then my brother pissed me off when I came out. I got in the car and he said "why do you wear all black? With that belt you look like a mariachi." I got so pissed off I wanted to hit him. I told him I think the only reason God made him was to knock me down all the time. Suddenly my mood totally changed from smiling to anger. We went to the grocery store and I told him if he wasn't my brother I would have already beat his ass for that. Then I started to walk off and he said "you always take things the wrong way. That's why you're so weak." I turned around and said "what?" and raised my fist to hit him, but then walked away. He knows I'm a sensitive guy, and I'm pretty self conscious. So why try and push me like that? Anyway, I haven't talked to him since. He'll end up apologizing, and I'm good now. I just get angry pretty easily. But anyway, I'll get over it. Brothers will be brothers right?