miloszbeardlove

Sex is all nice and stuff, but have you ever stood behind the curtain after EIGHT months and heard your theme hit the speakers? That is pure love! Well, it is for me, as it seems I am that kind of guy who needs to be fucked up to feel alive. Doesn't matter, had fun! ;) As I am now a part of the roster of IPW Germany, I took a flight to Hamburg, to go with them to Denmark and smash some stuff and bleed a little bit with a great guy called Chaos. Scared the shit out of some mama, but still had a great time and it felt sooo good, to get fucked up. :) I was even allowed to be a part of the rumble of the danish DPW and had to bring some hardcore to that table, too.

February 8th, marked the return of the Angry Butcher to IPW Germany in a 30 men rumble. God DAMN! It was fun smashing things in other faces and get smacked in the face by stuff... and it showed me once again a sad truth... I only feel alive and valid when I'm in the rind getting beat up, leaving bruised, battered and a little bit broken.

So, the last weekend was really awesome, because I was back "home" at the NEW HotSpot for some great wrestling. There was also one guy with whom I started two years ago and who works for another wrestling company. To make it even better I had a tryout match with him to show my head coach, the one and only Alex Wright, how good or bad I am. Quite frankly this was a big deal, as up until one month ago I was not even able to have a day without back pain or even stand in the ring for five minutes. And since about two weeks I feel nearly like reborn! I even did pretty well during the two gruelling hours of wrestling training on sunday, which made me feel very good and proud of myself. And then I came home... and all the good feelings were gone in one second... NangNang the other only male (even if just a cat, but still) in my house was lying on the flooor and has passed away at some point during the time I was not at home. I went down on my knees and was crying in front of him for a long, long time and begging for forgiveness that I have not been able to pfevent this and be there in his last moments. It breaks my heart to lose him as he was such a beautiful guy with a heart of pure gold! I will miss him forever and in the next days I will not even try to hold back any tears if thinking of him. Farewell my brother! I am thankful to have been a part of your life and I hope we will see each other one day and be able to cuddle again. Thank you for your wonderful grace and for lying next to me at night and choosing me as your pillow. It was an honour to be with you, love you and be loved by you.

Some nice pics and some words of wisdom ;) The handsome guy is a friend of mine and also professional wrestler Tom LaRuffa who wrestled in NXT and TNA.