I've decided to pretty much stop drinking. I don't drink much anyway but when I do I feel really down for about a week afterwards and I don't want to do anything but sulk. I tend to start contemplating everything in my life and its just the most awful feeling, and all due to having a drink.
I'm only going to have a drink now if I'm out and with a lot of people. I don't tend to feel bad after a good night out but when me and my boyfriend sit at home and have a drink, he never ends up actually drinking and so I feel so stupid that I've gotten drunk.
This whole thing is just more annoying than anything. I've decided I need to change my character as well, I need to read and draw more as its one way I can relax. I don't do a lot but my life is still very stressful and hectic and I can get so worked up so easily. I've also decided to try yoga and meditation and see if that works. Maybe then I wouldn't fall in to these little ruts from time to time. Well, lets hope it all works.
Seeing as I've been a bore and a moany arse in this blog, have this as an apology

I'm only going to have a drink now if I'm out and with a lot of people. I don't tend to feel bad after a good night out but when me and my boyfriend sit at home and have a drink, he never ends up actually drinking and so I feel so stupid that I've gotten drunk.
This whole thing is just more annoying than anything. I've decided I need to change my character as well, I need to read and draw more as its one way I can relax. I don't do a lot but my life is still very stressful and hectic and I can get so worked up so easily. I've also decided to try yoga and meditation and see if that works. Maybe then I wouldn't fall in to these little ruts from time to time. Well, lets hope it all works.
Seeing as I've been a bore and a moany arse in this blog, have this as an apology

noctuam:
i hope you feel better soon baby.
walshant:
It wasnt a bore at all, i think its healthy that you've seen a flaw in your life and its great that you are seeking new ways to become who you want to be, and get the mos out of life that you can.