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"A Scanner Darkly" was a pretty good film. I saw it over the weekend and was somewhat impressed.

In other news, my life has been getting more surreal and unbelievable by the day. I can't even get into how wrong everything is, but wow. I am just left reeling trying to figure out what on earth is really going on and why it is happening to me all at once. This onslaught of bad things and hurt and despair. It is mind numbing and heart-wrenching and wrong. Everyone I know and myself all enveloped by this storm of bad things and I think my heart feels more bad for those around me who I see hurting than for my own pain.

I met a family who has it pretty bad over the weekend. Another group of souls hit by whatever seems to be going around these parts right now. I met their 11 year old little girl while bringing them food. They are poor people, but not bad people, if that makes sense. The little girl is a very nice girl, some little girls in that age group are not so nice, a little snotty or disinterested. This girl was very polite. The poor thing was in clothes 3 sizes too small for her, she is a little bit chubby, so wearing pants which cut in and a shirt too short did not look comfortable or right and had to be somewhat humiliating for her. I felt so bad for her, so I thought a while who I knew with a little girl with that body type. My friends have very lean kids, like I do. It finally struck me the neighbor, who I know is the one calling the city on me, has a little girl who is 13 and has the same body type. So I sucked up and asked her for any old clothes. She totally hooked me up with a ton of stuff. I brought it over to the family yesterday and it was like a holiday. That little girl was so happy. I was so happy that she was happy. Maybe my neighbor will calm down on me now that we worked together on something to help out this family and help this girl go back to school with dignity. I've had so many bad things happen, and all have been costly in not only the emotional department but the finance department as well. I wish that wasn't the case because I would love to take a couple hundred dollars and just go buy that little girl a bunch of brand new clothes and some back to school supplies, just to make someone elses day a little better.