midnightjesus

just got home from the bar, and i'm feeling a little homesick....not homesick really but friendsick i guess. i miss my buds. it seems like too much work sometimes, talking to people. this last time i was getting ready to move, my close friend said to me " i don't see how you can just go and leave everything here behind" and at the time i told myself that i needed to go and explore new places, i tried to rationalize it by claiming some sort of adventure, but i know now that i was afraid. afraid of complacency, afraid of tomorrow being just like today, afraid that if i dont go, i never will. and now i feel i need to get rolling again, i'm starting to get too familiar, too comfortable with now.